while in the midst of it aim
to dredge the waves inland
and see the human object wash
from your hairs
wanting badly a pillow
your first word
pillow
pill
o
he watches as you undo the electrodes
and shake out the dried glue which is specific
but not sexy
the electrodes helped gather intel others
have asked for these waves their sorting
horizontal vertical what
ever poured ingredients in the jar
and it’s pure air out there
you’re proud of having rearranged
the air after you color-code the house
start decentralizing the nervous system
find more air
something handheld
with a golden hue fangled and slam (“TREM”)
I’m
fascinated by New York City poet Emmalea Russo’s latest, her Wave Archive (Toronto ON: Book*hug,
2019), in which, as the back cover offers, “Russo invokes her own experiences
with seizures, photographs and art-making, archival and indexical processes,
brain waves, and the very personal need to document and store while
simultaneously questioning the reliability of memory and language.” Following
up on her full-length poetry debut, G
(Futurepoem, 2018) [see my review of such here], Russo’s Wave Archive is reminiscent of Vancouver writer Elee Kraljii Gardiner’s recent Trauma Head (Vancouver
BC: Anvil Press, 2018) [see my review of such here], a collection that wrote
through and around her mini-stroke and the after-effects, as well as Christine McNair’s current work-in-progress exploring preeclampsia, all of which explore health
trauma through a language that works to “articulate the incomprehensible”
beyond the lyric or the purely descriptive. While Wave Archive might utilize both the lyric and the descriptive,
research and the descriptive, the book blends those alongside drawings,
photographs, lists and the experiential, pulling apart cognition even as she
works to fully explore those cognitive sparks, breaks and fragments. As part of
the book’s opening sequence, she writes: “no it’s not exactly swimming but your
head is submerged and you’re sure / that this is closer to therapy than therapy
as the mind that occupies you / studies only the next wave or perhaps not even
that and as a thought / begins to form the next wave // chops it off [.]” Set
in thirteen short sections, including an untitled opening, Wave Archive’s pages accumulate and collage their way through
lyric, prose, language poetry, graphs, photographs, indexes, lists,
observations, responses and out-of-body experiences to attempt to hold her
particular understanding of and ongoing experiences with epilepsy; she attempts
to both articulate and understand how information is processed, sorted and
re-sorted, writing out her thinking as she is thinking it. Moving seamlessly
from the finely researched to the experiential, Wave Archive is precisely that, an accumulation of wave upon wave
of Emmalea Russo’s thinking, being and responding through her researches upon
and experiences around epilepsy. “You’ve cut the word sick, and its synonyms,” she writes, to open the section “TO FORGET
THE SELF IS CALLED ENTERING HEAVEN,” “from your vocabulary.” The piece
continues:
You skim the index of the book The Falling Sickness and find that you’ve
underlined several entries in haphazard maroon marker.
TEMPERAMENT. The men you’ve loved
sing in chorus:
If there is one thing I
wouldn’t call you its hemmed in.
Hem,
An edge
taken
in
A seizure is an event and, as such, can happen
whenever.
The neurologist: Your personality, your short-term memory, will start to be impacted. We
want you to be with us for at least five more decades.
In the above sentence, what is meant by “us” is
“the world.” You could reword the sentence: We
want you to be in the world for at least five more decades. Or: We want you to be alive for the next…
Or: We don’t want you to die. Even: The
world doesn’t want you to die.
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