Opalescent
Your family is in
flight. It seems that decades didn’t happen or happened all at once. The next
few years are all weddings. On the end of holidays we wait for the next
holiday. We remember bombed resorts and the constant cigarettes. People danced
at parties with no regard for your safety. One summer the playground had long
chains with rings and kids broke arms. All those dumb kids are now actors. The hardest
thing is to let go of your retinas, to accept that they are dissolving. This terrible
gap in your ground, this open maw makes the house less stable. Whether your fem
is dusty does not matter. If it is ringed, settling scores, or waiting—all this
does not matter. It is natural, no, expected that you are now afraid of
everything.
I’ve
only recently come to reading Philadelphia poet and publisher Natalie Lyalin’s sincerely
playful first collection, Pink & Hot Pink Habitat (Atlanta GA: Coconut Books, 2009). Since then, she’s published
twice with Brooklyn’s Ugly Duckling Press—a chapbook, Try a Little Time Travel (2010), and the full-length Blood Makes Me Faint But I Go For It (2014)—neither
of which I’ve seen but hope to pick up. Part of what appeals about Lyalin’s
poems are the structural range she presents throughout the collection, from clipped
lyric poems and extended sequences to prose poems and short fragments, as well
as the incredible amount of “serious play” she engages with. These poems are
smart and sad and joyously fun, writing out and around and thrusting deep
through a variety of distractions to get right at the heart of the matter, such
as her poem “From the Suitcase My Back I an Arrow.,” that ends with: “There is
no music for months. Put us in that truck. // Give chocolate to the ladies.
Racecars to the men. I’m dead right now // and you have the cancer. Can we talk
about it. Let’s talk about // your cancer. I have two sweaters. One has a house
and chimney.” I need to read some more Natalie Lyalin.
Miss
Sarajevo
Wears her own crown. By
the entrance, flowers.
An idea of learned
helplessness. Such as, when a
child does not know
where to find a new glue stick.
Such as a pageant,
where lucite strikes the faux-
Cobble stone. Diagrams reveal
an overlap of interests:
Tennis and high fashion.
Tennis because of hyper
balls, and high fashion
because of cruelty in
the swagger. Miss
Sarajevo walking across the stage,
by the entrance,
flowers. A sense of removal from
that which is violent. From
that which keeps
entering itself into
the pageant. A unicorn is a mythical
being, much like Miss
Sarajevo, walking somehow
straight and not at all
violent.
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