Sweetie notices my sudden shift in attention and tries to draw me back to another world. I must focus so hard now on my paid tasks. None of this comes easily anymore.
Mostly, I’m failing at all this, and it will be discussed in-depth at my weekly one-on-one. I don’t remember much about being a small child. I don’t have an authentic first memory. I can’t remember how I felt about things when they were new. My identity has formed by processing and reprocessing, which means I’m changing all the time and most things feel strange, out of sync.
Now I write everything
down, because I’d never remember otherwise. I document. I fill massive amounts
of online storage with poorly shot photos of my daily life that I’ll never post
publicly, but I’ll look at sometimes late at night. And sometimes it is just
enough to warrant keeping everything. It’s the photos of my children that I appreciate
the most. The app I use has mentioned their little faces and is monitoring how
they age. It makes these highlight videos of them with muzak, and I have to
say, our privacy is a small price to pay for something so adorable. (“SWEETIE”)
From Chilliwack, British Columbia poet Taryn Hubbard, following Desire Path (Vancouver BC: Talonbooks, 2020) [see my review of such here] and The Very Good Best Friend (Winnipeg MB: Now or Never Publishing, 2025), comes Beautiful Unknown Future (Talonbooks, 2026), a curious book-length lyric collage assembled into section-clusters. Set with opening poem “COMPASSION,” the collection is organized into “SWEETIE,” “FLIGHT,” “STRANERS,” “REACTION,” “BEAUTY” and “SPECTRE,” presenting a lyric of prose poems and line breaks; a lyric centred around, it would seem, the sentence itself. “the mama bear / who lives in / the pocket of forest / left behind the / cul-de-sac,” begins the poem that begins the collection, “has been food / conditioned to seek / Skip the Dishes / straight from / neighbourhood / trash cans [.]” The poems that accumulate into Beautiful Unknown Future give the sense of lyric journal entries, self contained but interconnected, amid an isolation and anxiety through and around children, parenting and climate, offering a suggestion of Covid-era isolation with small children, but slightly fictionalized, held to a series of responses over any direct sense of the document. “my feelings about the weather / swing from relieved to concerned,” she writes, mid-way through the collection, “both summer and winter are extremely / uncertain times [.]” As much as anything, this is a document working through her anxiety through that particular period of isolation with small children, attempting to see her way through such, Covid-era or not, articulating games and stories with the children, climate concerns and other threads that float through her attention. As the “NOTE” at the end of the collection begins:
Beautiful Unknown Future came from a desire to document parts of my everyday life and thinking while I was in the early days of raising my children. While these poems aren’t completely autobiographical in a traditional sense, they bring together aspects of my daily life from 2021 to 2025. As a global pandemic and record-breaking heat and rain not only made the headlines but were experienced on an individual and personal level day after day, the unprecedented began to slowly feel familiar, and I wanted to document those early feelings. During this time as well, my son was born and my daughter was learning more about the nuances of communication. The character of Sweetie started as a way to document some lessons and teachings between my daughter and me, but then quickly expanded into more of a presence of something that wasn’t there physically but lived somewhere in my heart or at the back of my mind, just out of sight. It went like this, I might think. Or, the thing you need to know is … and this device became a gateway straight into the bluntness of what I’d been thinking about, a one-way ticket to the tow-away zone.


